Jonathan Jonathan “Where are you?

Towards the end of November was the last time I penned a post on this site and the realization of that has left me feeling kind of guilty. To be honest it was not on purpose. Although I look back on 2011 and I can happily reflect on the amazing business accomplishments I achieved, on a personal level there was not too much to be happy about. 2011 seemed to only bring me personal tragedy and crisis constantly culminating in me finding out at the end of December that I would lose my home and would have to move.

I was not immune to the recession that took place. I lost my job in 2008 and had to start the rebuilding process. I was living in a home that my father in law held the mortgage. Since he lost work as well we decided to build an apartment in the lower level for him and my mother in law in order to both cut our costs significantly. We started the long process of going through a loan modification. I assumed everything was fine and then back in August of 2011 we get a notice of foreclosure.

Imagine my shock. I thought everything was fine. I hired paralegals and a lawyer to fight this. After a few thousand dollars later I come to find out that due to a couple of oversights on our end regarding some fine print in the modification that the big bank had won and I had not. Needless to say, I have been speechless over all of this. I guess we all have our thresholds, don't we?

Writing this post is my way of purging. As I have gotten older I have come to realize I retain all my stress inside of me without even realizing its overall effect on me personally and for those around me. With everything that has taken place, I keep telling myself each morning to just set realistic goals for the day and push through it. Despite all the bologna of 2011, I do have much to be grateful for which as I am writing this post I am reflecting on. It's not my way of scolding me for being upset but it serves as a great balancing tool for sure.

In a little over a week, I will be in my new place and I am honestly looking forward to it. It may be a temporary roof over my head while I continue the rebuilding process but it's a roof and I am happy. It will serve as a symbol of another new beginning in my life. 2011 has taught me many personal lessons about me and about how I function. I think I know where I am now. I believe I have found what I needed. I am grateful for all the support, in general, I have received from all of you and I look forward to a solid positive direction personally. It's time to hop back in the saddle and crush it.

Written by Jonathan Saar